Category: River James
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Dear Pregnant Friend
Dear Pregnant Friend, I know you were scared to tell me. Allow me to explain my view so you can understand that deep down, I am actually happy for you. Yes, I’m jealous of you. Because a few months ago, I was pregnant, too. I know the feelings you’re experiencing. The excitement, the fear. That…
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Don’t Forget Daddy
I have always been a huge advocate for my husband – River’s Daddy. Each appointment we went to, I was always asked how I was doing. But would respond with a “we” statement instead. The dad’s often get overlooked and forgotten. Don’t forget daddy. I know – they didn’t birth the child, they’re not bleeding,…
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Guide to Healing
This is my personal guide to healing. I am not an expert, I am simply giving you tips on what helped me personally get through the initial grieving process. I will update this throughout my healing process with things I find helpful! Create a positive mindset: This is the hardest part. It’s hard to reset…
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I Dreamed of You Last Night
January 10th, 2021. I dreamed of you last night. I have been waiting for a dream like that. It seems as if when I stop thinking about it, you appear. My little man, you are a sneaky one. It was the first time in my life I wished my dreams were my reality. I dreamed…
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A Father’s Perspective on His Stillborn Son
Take a look into the perspective of my husband, TJ, regarding his experience with our stillborn son. I hope this allows other men to feel a sense of connection and bring comfort in knowing that it is okay to not be okay. As his wife, I always advocated for him throughout this process. The father…
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That Empty Chair
I sit here and smile within the bliss of the holidays. I look around and can’t shake the thought that you are missing. That thought is what strikes my soul once again. It reminds me that this isn’t supposed to be. My smile gently fades and I’m overtaken with sadness. The holidays are tough this…
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Year 2020
Year 2020. The year where I lived through my greatest joy and pain. The joy I pray you experience one day, but the pain I hope none of you ever have to endure. This is the pain that will put you on your knees and make you beg. I remember this moment so vividly. How…
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Q and A
Here is what you’ve been waiting for! Thank y’all so much for the questions you submitted. It’s comforting to know that so many people want to learn more about stillbirth and our coping process. I will be posting another video regarding my birth story. I had so many questions about that and would like to…
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1 month in Heaven
October 19th, 2020. 1 month old. I’ve heard many times people say that kids grow up quick. And, they do. I’ll be honest, I thought 1 month went by fast until I realized it feels like forever since I’ve seen you. It’s been 1 month without you physically here. I hate to say I’ve been…
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